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Personality Pop!  

In the womb, Baby A (Brooks) moved more frequently than did Baby B (Bella).  But Bella was much more forceful when she did make her moves.  As babies, I used to describe the twins as “sweet” & “spicy.”  Baby Brooks was generally the more laid back one.  In Contrast, Bella’s feisty spirit demanded a lot of adaptations and special attention.  The twins started really emerging as individuals by 15 months.  Although it has been obvious to me that they have very distinct personalities, they are now starting to really burst.  I feel like I’m finally being properly introduced to my babies and who they really are.


Brooks has his “rough & tumble” little boy tendencies, but having both a big & little sister, is learning the fine art of “gentle touch.”  His favorite toy is a ball, any kind of ball.  He throws with precision, tries to catch, kicks and punts, spikes, hits with clubs, and even bounces balls off his head, everything short of juggling.  I’ve even heard him say “ball” in his sleep.  I definitely foresee my future self as a soccer mom.  He loves to pretend to read, and does so with great inflection of voice!  When given the chance to pick out a nighttime story, he goes to the shelf, and out of over the 20+ books on the one shelf he can reach, he’ll inevitably return with “Goodnight Moon.”  If he wakes up at night, he comes and lays on me, however he can get comfortable, even if it means laying on my feet.  Brooksie loves to eat!  When hungry, he’ll yell “mam, mam, mam, mam!” until he gets his food.  He hates getting his diaper changed and pitches a fit when being strapped in the car seat.  But over-all he’s a very loving little guy and I know he’ll grow up to be a sensitive, chivalrous gentleman.

1Brooks soccer Brooks smiling with mommy`Brooks smile box edited

Bella is kind little girl who communicates extremely well, using both her wide vocabulary and signs.  She wishes she could speak in full sentences and gets frustrated when she feels she’s not being understood.  She’s fascinated by things that fasten, zip or snap.  She loves trying to figure things out.  I definitely foresee my future self doing puzzles and building extensively with Legos.  To keep her entertained, I put safe “non-toys” inside a hand bag  or zipper purse and let her open it and go through and pull out each item.  During her play sessions, she’ll occasionally stop and simply come to me, as if she’s checking on me to make sure I’m okay.  She isn’t overly clingy but loves to ride the “Mommy train” (when I baby-wear her on my back).  She often falls asleep back there while I’m shopping or cleaning or dancing.   She also sings to herself and often repeats words in the same key in which they are spoken.  I think she’ll be into music.  Bella asks for food by saying “Mey? Mey?”  She has a nickname for her brother: “Bae.” When BellaBoola gets upset about something, she’s usually easy to calm and I believe she’ll grow up to be a passionate and compassionate person.

Bella swing smile 2015-07-21 mommy belle and bella babywearing Bella in the bathroom

The best thing about seeing these two grow into themselves is watching them interact with each other.  Up until recently, their play was mostly parallel.  Lately, however, they’ve been playing, more and more with each other.  They usually play quite well, taking turns and sharing, to some degree.  They also learn from each other.  I’ve noticed that when one learns a new word, the other is usually saying it also by the following day or two.  But this new element of interaction means more supervision and hyper-vigilance on my part.  For example, today they tried to play ring-around-the-rosie, but ended up hugging instead of holding hands.  It would have been the cutest thing ever, except they lost their balance and they both tumbled onto the kitchen floor.  Bella, who had taken the brunt of the fall was in tears while Brooks, who’d been cushioned by his sister was still laughing hysterically.

2015-07-11 twins in crib not crying Bella Brooks plane 096

In the beginning, I have to admit, having twins intimidated me greatly.  Just having one child was a daunting enough challenge.  As a person who struggles with anxiety and bipolar disorder, I wondered, am I equipped to handle this?  The answer to that is….

1 no

…no way could I handle this alone.  I’m a strong person, maybe even super, but the power I use to raise my children does not come from within, it comes from above.  It is supernatural.  I know God designated me with this job so that He would be glorified!  And every day as I see my babies learning more and more, I feel less overwhelmed and more overwhelmingly blessed.

(written Nov 5-9, 2015, Twins 16 months)

Double Talk Quote:  “Brooks wants to (spells) G-o O-u-t-s-i-d-e” – Grandma. “Oh, he wants to go outside” – Amor states aloud.

Bible Verse:  “Let brotherly love continue.” Hebrews 13:1

Word that has Lost its meaning: no

Relatable Lyrics:  “Loyalty” by The Watchkins

“We are birds of a feather, we are always together… we’re friends and amigos, I go where he goes, we travel the trail side-by-side…

…my partner, my buddy, my friend…together we’re two of a kind

Loyalty, It’s being a friend, true to the end, sticking by each other through think & thin”

Just In Time


Just In Time:  To Avert a Financial Crisis

Over eight years ago, Amor and I became debt-free and we made a pact never to use credit again, unless it was to purchase a house.  We kept that promise, for the most part, until six months ago when my van (that I use to transport the kids) needed maintenance that we couldn’t afford.  The interest-free credit card (as long as you pay within a certain time frame) was too juicy an offer for Amor to refuse, so despite my objections, he fixed it up.  “You want a van to drive, that’s in working order, don’t you?”  Yes, yes, I did.  Around that time, he also borrowed a large sum of cash from a friend for  lawn equipment, in the hopes that he could work part time doing yards and bring in a decent income.

In just this past month, Amor and I have racked up thousands of dollars of debt to family and friends.  We paid off the car repair loan, just in time.  But not the “lawn friend loan.”  And then…

  1. The lawn mower broke.  We had to pay the repair man just to tell us that it would cost more to fix it than it would to buy a new one.  Not only is this an added expense, this has severely impacted our income.
  2. Amor’s work van didn’t pass inspection, so we spent a ton of cash to try to get a waiver, only to have it brake down completely.  Again, we paid the repair man just to tell us that to get it fixed costs far more than its value.
  3. My van started running hot, and we discovered that the radiator and water pump were shot.  It also needed all new tires.
  4. The deadline to file some paperwork for Amor’s immigration case is almost upon us.  (We just found out, it had to be filed within a certain time frame).  The filing fees for the paperwork plus attorney’s payment, plus other fees and expenses for necessary items (such as passports for me and the kids) add up to thousands of dollars!
  5. My computer crashed.  We rebuilt it from its original disks, but it’s missing programs that I need that are expensive and it needs a new battery.

I always pray for God to keep things running smoothly.  But naturally speaking, things are bound to break.  Due to normal wear and tear, these things that need fixing should have broken down long ago.  I believe God has supernaturally kept them running, until a time when we could afford for them to break.

This month, if all goes well, I should be getting an inheritance, one that has been a long time coming; over 11 years to be exact.  It’s no fortune, but hopefully, (prayerfully), after tithing, it will be enough to cover these costs and get us back on our feet, with a place of our own.

Dear God, thank you for your provision.  I believe that you know what we need before we do and will give us favor.  Help us to use what we earn and what are given wisely.  I praise you and thank you, Father, Amen.

(Written Nov 3-5, 2015, Twins 16 months)

Double Talk Quote:  Distracted:  “You’ve got to put your shoes on first, before you put on your socks” – me (other way around, mommy!)

Bible Verse: Luke 12:24 & 27 -Consider the ravens: they neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn, and yet God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds!  Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.

Term that has Lost its meaning:  done deal

Relatable Lyrics:  Counting Stars by OneRepublic

“Lately, I’ve been, I’ve been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I’ve been, I’ve been praying hard,
Said, no more counting dollars
We’ll be counting stars, yeah we’ll be counting stars”


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