A Moment Frozen in Time (Then Melted For…A While)
Tuesday, I did laundry and on Wednesday, started packing. My daughter, Mica’s birthday was Thursday. My sister Sarah came into town on Friday. Saturday morning we went to an Easter festival, then Amor and I packed up the van and headed out-of-town with four kids to visit extended family members and for a short spring vacation.
I brought my computer, and during the much-longer-than-it-should-have-taken drive, I imported and organized some pictures from my phone to the computer. I wanted to make sure I had plenty of space on my phone – the only camera I had taken with me. It fills up quickly and has too little space and functions too slowly to upload pictures to an internet cloud or email. So my system is to load them to the computer, back them up onto a flash drive, then clear out the camera phone. If I don’t clear out all the photos at once, I’ll have to delete them one-by-one later, which is frustrating and time-consuming, to separate the ones I’ve saved from the new ones. I was just finishing up as we arrived at the beach. I felt proud of myself for having accomplished that.
On Easter Sunday morning, I dressed up the twins. I went all out too! Brooks was so handsome in his little black suit and red tie, and Bella was adorable in her pink flowery dress. “Take a picture (thinking: before they get dirty)!” I said to Amor and handed him my phone. We visited the church I grew up in, the pastor of which, officiated our wedding. I saw a few family members there. We exchanged hugs and niceties but I got the impression that a few of them may still be holding onto some old grudges since they ducked out before I even had a chance to grab my camera phone. (Can we just bury the hatchet already?) Maybe they were just in a hurry and it’s all in my mind. I’ll chose to think the best and go with that. Anyway…
Our next stop was my Aunt’s house where other family members were gathered. She had invited us to their annual Easter lunch, which we haven’t attended in a few years (due to understandable circumstances). She had never even met the twins. It was a nice little family reunion. So nice, indeed, that I just had to get a picture, two actually. With all our hectic lives, who knows when or even if this group of people will be together again. It was a moment worth capturing.
It took a good hour to get back to our hotel. It was raining and the kids started going stir-crazy. “When can we go to the pool? When can we go to the pool? When can we go to the pool?” As I blew up water-wings and gathered towels, I thought, “This would be a great time to get some good pics and/or video.” I grabbed my phone and quickly flipped through the gallery. I admit, I was distracted. For some reason, some of the pictures that had already been transferred and that should have been erased were still there. So guess what I did..
I hit the delete button! Oops, I erased them all, even the new ones that I hadn’t even looked at or saved. I was so disappointed with myself. I tried, but couldn’t find any way to retrieve them. What a shame! I started to get upset. I wanted to beat myself up for doing something so stupid.
But then it hit me: Those pictures aren’t gone. They still exist in my mind. That mental picture is fresh and the reminder is right here in my words in this post
To the family whose picture I didn’t get: I see you
To the family whose picture I lost: I’ll remember you
To my extended family, even though we are far away from each other, some physically, some emotionally, I love you all.
I have my mental picture and its clarity and contrast is better than anything a camera phone could have ever captured.
(Resurrection Sunday, March 27, 2016, Twins 21 months, Mica 8, Hope 6)
(Above pictures courtesy of Amor’s phone)
Double Talk Quote: “But I don’t even know how to take care of babies!” – Hope, shortly after the twins were born. “You will soon,” I reply.
Bible Verse: “I tell you this: flesh and blood cannot inherit the kingdom of God, nor does the perishable inherit the imperishable… O death, where is your sting? …Thanks be to God, who gives us the victory …” 1 Corinthians 15:50-57
Word that has Lost its meaning: Cloud
Relatable Lyrics: “The Easter Song” by Keith Green
“The angels, they all surround us, And they are ministering Jesus’ power
Quickly now, reach out and receive it, For this could be your glorious hour!”
After reading this post, Grandma contacted me and implored me to search for restoration programs and instructed me not to take any more pics until I had done so. I had to delete about 5 apps from my phone to make room for a disk restore app, all while trying to get out the hotel room with 4 excited kids and one irritated hubby (I don’t blame him, it did take a while). But low-and-behold, I did get my pictures back. I guess they hadn’t melted away forever!!! Praise the Lord!