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Morning Prayer

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Thank you, Lord, for a good day today!  Help me to rejoice and be glad in it.  Your word says to put on the full armor of God so that I can stand against the tricks of the devil.  I put on the Helmet of Salvation, the Buckle of Truth, the Feet of the Gospel of Peace, the Breastplate of Righteousness, the Shield of Faith, and the Sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God.  Satan has no authority over me.  I use your Word to combat any fiery dart Satan tries to throw my way this day.  I break any curse, any chain, any stronghold the Devil would try to use against me, in the name of Jesus.  I pray that no weapon that is formed against me shall prosper, that I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength, for greater is he who is in me than he who is in the world.  I am more than a conqueror through Christ, I have the mind of Christ and am a joint heir with Christ, for I am your beloved child.  I reject, demolish and destroy any argument or any thought that comes against the knowledge of God.  Help me to bring each and every thought, no matter how small, into the captivity and obedience of Christ.  Let me not be conformed to this world but transformed by the renewal of my mind that in testing I can prove your perfect will in me.  Show me how to delight myself in you and ordain each step I take today. Show me where to go, what to do, when to speak, and what to say.  I want to do things Your way and be in line with Your will for my life.  For Your plans are greater than my plans and Your thoughts greater than my thoughts.  How wonderful are your thoughts and plans for me; plans to give me a hope and a future.  I trust in that.  I put my hope and faith completely in You.  According to your Word, faith the size of a mustard seed is sufficient to move any mountain that is in my path.  Help me, Father, to practice love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.  Help me to give to You, cheerfully and to serve others selflessly, for in serving others, I am serving and bringing glory to You.  Help me to always remain in your presence, Lord and to pray continually.  Make my life a living prayer, Holy and acceptable, that honors You.  I thank you, I praise you, I worship you, and I love you, Father God, my provider, my Lord, and King.  In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.

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Double Talk Quote: “Thank you, Lord for your…many, many blessings” – Grandaddy Joe

Bible Verse: “Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you.” Jeremiah 29:12

Word that has Lost its meaning: Lost

Relatable Lyrics:  10,000 Reasons (Bless the Lord) – Matt Redman

The sun comes up, it’s a new day dawning
It’s time to sing your song again
Whatever may pass and whatever lies before me
Let me be singing when the evening comes

Bless the Lord, Oh my soul
Oh my soul, worship his holy name
Sing like never before, Oh my soul
I’ll worship your holy name

Dichotomy of Days


Joy then Grief
Excitement then Dread
Laughter then Tears
Celebration then Mourning
Lights then Candles
Feast then Fast
Forced forgetfulness then Flood of memories
Laughter then Tears
Elation then Depression
Embracing Christmas spirit then Remembering spirit passed
Focused on a birth then Focused on a death


Context:  “…Christmas time is already bittersweet.  Daddy died at 4 am on  December 26, 2010.  With each passing year, I’ve worked very hard to separate, in my mind, Christmas from the day after Christmas.  Christmas is a time to celebrate, to recognize God’s greatest gift to us.  I pour everything I have into making it spectacular for my children.  Seeing them excited and happy fills me with so much joy.  The day after Christmas is a time of mourning.  I spend time with my family, listening to daddy’s songs and reading his comics.  I laugh and cry.  I remember.  I love.  I grieve what was lost.  I try not to think of what might have been.” – Written 12/2015


Baby Blues

Baby Blues

da da da da dum…
da da da da dum…
da da da da dum, de dum, de dum, de dum, de dum, da da dum…
da da da da dum…

I woke up from naptime,
I was ready to play,
Mommy was alone, Daddy wasn’t home, he had to work all day,

Now I got the play time,
The play-time baby blues (bl-ues),
Yeah, the Mommy she’s real cool,
But sometimes she just won’t do.

da da da da dum…

I woke up at midnight,
Look what someone did,
Encaged and enraged, shocked and dismayed, they made me sleep in my crib,

Now I got the midnight,
The midnight baby blues (bl-ues),
So I cried to my Mommy (come pick me up),
I wanna cuddle with you.

da da da da dum…

I woke up this morning,
I was ready for food,
Looked over to find Mommy by my side with a yum-yum filled boob,

Now I got some yum-yums,
To cure my baby blues (bl-ues),
Yeah, the yum-yums good for my tum-tums (give me some)
To cure my baby blues.

Yeah, I had the baby (baby)
I had the baby blues (bl-ues),
I had the little-baby-‘bout-to-make-my-mommy-go-insane-y blues, blues.

(Written Dec 2008)


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Twin Grin – Bella and Brooks

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Mommy and Baby Mica




Warning:  Yum-Yum (breast-feeding) Photo ahead:




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23 months (almost at the 2-year marker)!



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I’m so tired, still I open my eyes

Breathing too quickly although I try

To inhale calmly and let out a sigh

And think to myself and wonder why

Am I so cold?  And to my surprise

I’ve hidden exhaustion behind a guise

Of nervous energy and wicked lies

I tell myself to realize

What dreams mean when I fly

And when I fall wish I were high

And then I’ll crawl wish I could cry

Again that’s all like I have died


I’m so sleepy, still I am awake

Dreaming when so much real is at stake

And sometimes decisions that I have to make

Are more like illusions that I have to fake

And even though sometimes I make a mistake

I still need to rest; the whole world needs to wait

Because I need to sleep so I need to take

Something that won’t make me crash too late

But nothing is out there for my own sake

And nothing’s in here for me not to hate

Except nothing and nowhere for me to escape

Through the cracks, can’t sleep through this mental earthquake.

Jan 20, 2003



Twinkle Twinkle Little Starla, How I Wonder at All You Are

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To my sister with love on her birthday:

We called you thumper when you were in the womb.
When you were 3, Bambi made you cry, even though you’d see in a hundred times

Your baby book is laced with my handwriting.
I had prayed for a 3rd sister.

You used to kick me when I’d try to brush your hair. I know, you’re sorry for that.
I let you taste your first sip of beer. I know, you know, I’m sorry for that.

It took a pregnant woman’s tears to get you off that mountain. It’s good that you went, but you didn’t belong there.
As hard as you tried, you could never have been one of them. Your heart was not that hard.

The anointing on you was too strong. God wouldn’t let you go.

Your then boyfriend barely said “hello.”
Your now husband prays over our home.

You shed light on me when I was in my darkest of places.
I’m only one of many who can say that.

We’ve grieved.

We’ve cried until we laughed and laughed until we’ve cried.

We work together, teach together,
play together and pray together.

I teach you things as I learn from you.

You’ve got stars in your eyes.
We’ve got love in our lives.

You’ve captured the colors of the sunset.
We’ll see them all once we’ve seen the Morning Star.

We have Jesus. We are alive. We’ll be together forever.
And that, my sissy, that fills me with joy.


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I love you,

Love, Big Sissy Belle

Old Double Talk Quote:  something like:  “Wasn’t it Einstein who invented the light bulb? or am I thinking of Benjamin Franklin?” – Starz back in school, [Insert Belle laughing] “Edison” – History wasn’t our favorite subject or maybe a slip of the tongue
(Einstein was genius, we always think of him with light bulb overhead, Franklin had the key/kite “discovered” electricity).

Bible Verse: Look up into the heavens. Who created all the stars?  He who brings out the starry host one by one and calls forth each of them by name. Because of his great power and mighty strength, not one of them is missing.  Isaiah 40:26

Word that has Lost its meaning: death

Relatable Lyrics:  “Shooting Star” – Owl City  “Let your colors burn, and brightly burst,
Into a million sparks, but all dispersed and illuminate a world,
That’ll try to bring you down, but not this time”

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Let’s Stay Up and Play

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Mommy says, soft and sweet,
“Go to bed, it’s time to sleep…
In your crib, don’t you weep.”
But in babies’ heads here’s what they think:
“I don’t wanna go to bed tonight,
I don’t want a nap today,
I don’t want to go to sleep, that’s right,
Let’s stay up and play!”
Mommy sings a lullaby
“Go to sleep, don’t you cry…
Please don’t whine, just close your eyes.”
But in babies’ minds, they wonder, why? (Porque why)
And “I don’t wanna go to bed tonight,
I don’t want a nap today,
I don’t want to go to sleep, that’s right,
Let’s stay up and play!”
Everybody sing (chorus)
Let’s play all night and day…
Let’s stay up and play!
Hooray for play!
– Written by S. Michelle Ward Mendoza
(November 2008 for Mica, now adapted for and dedicated to Brooks and Bella)
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