SuperMom Mentality

Felt like I slept too long but did have some time while both babies, Mica, and Amor slept to finally go through another desk drawer from the dining room. I had started going through kitchen stuff for the yard sale (set for Saturday) but grandma wanted to keep this and that for sentimental value and I got discouraged, no knowing whose was what, so I quit. By the time Mica got off to school and it was finally time for Amor to get up, the babies were up and I was exhausted again. Yeah, my Knight had arrived. But of course, he had something so pressing that couldn’t wait. The van needed an inspection (Tuesday it was a 3 hour oil change). Ahhh! I looked up the location he insisted it had to be taken to on Google maps world view to find out the name of the place to make sure he called ahead of time to be sure they could inspect it right away and he wouldn’t be gone what felt like all day again. He left around 11 and came back at 4, well after Mica had arrived home and told me she planned to go to the beach with Grandma, Hope and Tia and that Grandma was going to pick her up early on Friday. When Amor returned, he postponed the yard sale until next weekend, again, (we’ve never had a weekend where Tia and/or Grandma lend a helping hand with the babies) and he “took over.” I fell asleep. I really wanted to shower but didn’t have the strength. By the time I woke up it was nearly my bedtime again and I was very frustrated because I wanted to spend some time with Mica but hadn’t had a chance. Now, if I took her aside, I would make her late getting to bed. Plus, I still hadn’t showered. I forced myself to get up and shower at least before going to bed for the night. I came out crying and Amor asked what was wrong. I told him I felt like I missed Mica and I got ready for bed as quickly as possible and did get a chance to read her a little golden book I’d found for her the previous Sunday for 75% off at the thrift store. But I felt my night meds kicking in so it was bittersweet. – written Oct 16, 2014