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Morning Prayer

20170415_Sunset Beach Morning Prayer

Thank you, Lord, for a good day today!  Help me to rejoice and be glad in it.  Your word says to put on the full armor of God so that I can stand against the tricks of the devil.  I put on the Helmet of Salvation, the Buckle of Truth, the Feet of the Gospel of Peace, the Breastplate of Righteousness, the Shield of Faith, and the Sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God.  Satan has no authority over me.  I use your Word to combat any fiery dart Satan tries to throw my way this day.  I break any curse, any chain, any stronghold the Devil would try to use against me, in the name of Jesus.  I pray that no weapon that is formed against me shall prosper, that I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength, for greater is he who is in me than he who is in the world.  I am more than a conqueror through Christ, I have the mind of Christ and am a joint heir with Christ, for I am your beloved child.  I reject, demolish and destroy any argument or any thought that comes against the knowledge of God.  Help me to bring each and every thought, no matter how small, into the captivity and obedience of Christ.  Let me not be conformed to this world but transformed by the renewal of my mind that in testing I can prove your perfect will in me.  Show me how to delight myself in you and ordain each step I take today. Show me where to go, what to do, when to speak, and what to say.  I want to do things Your way and be in line with Your will for my life.  For Your plans are greater than my plans and Your thoughts greater than my thoughts.  How wonderful are your thoughts and plans for me; plans to give me a hope and a future.  I trust in that.  I put my hope and faith completely in You.  According to your Word, faith the size of a mustard seed is sufficient to move any mountain that is in my path.  Help me, Father, to practice love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.  Help me to give to You, cheerfully and to serve others selflessly, for in serving others, I am serving and bringing glory to You.  Help me to always remain in your presence, Lord and to pray continually.  Make my life a living prayer, Holy and acceptable, that honors You.  I thank you, I praise you, I worship you, and I love you, Father God, my provider, my Lord, and King.  In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.

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Double Talk Quote: “Thank you, Lord for your…many, many blessings” – Grandaddy Joe

Bible Verse: “Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you.” Jeremiah 29:12

Word that has Lost its meaning: Lost

Relatable Lyrics:  10,000 Reasons (Bless the Lord) – Matt Redman

The sun comes up, it’s a new day dawning
It’s time to sing your song again
Whatever may pass and whatever lies before me
Let me be singing when the evening comes

Bless the Lord, Oh my soul
Oh my soul, worship his holy name
Sing like never before, Oh my soul
I’ll worship your holy name

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I See Two Heads!

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“You can’t sleep here, ma’am.” Leaning back on a couch at the thrift store, I was hoisted back into consciousness by the sale’s lady.  “Sorry, I’m pregnant.  I started feeling very dizzy, so I just sat here.”  “Oh, My manager thought you were another wine-o.” She brought me some ice water and I sat there a few more minutes until I felt well enough to drive.  I had to pick up my first-grader from school.

I knew then that I needed to see the doctor, insurance or not.  My morning sickness combined with withdrawal from bipolar medication had made me bedridden for weeks already and I was only 9 weeks along.  I had applied for coverage, but hadn’t been seen yet, due to a back-up in their system.  I went in the next day and they listened for the tiny heartbeat.  They said the baby was fine and my blood pressure was just a little low.

But I was not fine.  Over the next three months, I suffered severe nausea, dizziness, extreme fatigue, mood swings, and deep depression.  It was all I could do to get out of bed long enough to get Mica ready for school.  The change took a toll on my marriage.  We had been doing so well!  Well enough to think we could handle another child yet within a matter of weeks, I was wondering if we would survive this.  Had we made a mistake in getting pregnant?  Oh, then the guilt that goes along with that question…

Here’s what I wrote in my prayer journal Feb 6, 2014, at 18 weeks (about half way through my pregnancy):

“Dear God,  I’m freaking going crazy!  I cry every day.  I can’t take it back.  I should be feeling grateful and excited, I have my first ultrasound today.  But I’m afraid.  Something just doesn’t feel right.  I’m in a bad place emotionally and I’m scared it’s affecting the baby.  I feel like I’m drowning.  I am in so far over my head.  I can’t even take care of myself, much less two kids.  What the heck was I thinking?  I feel completely inadequate…  I want to see this a a gift, a miracle from You.  Lord, please make my baby healthy and help me be a good mother.  I need help, Amen.”

My entire family attended that first ultrasound.  They had told us we’d have a good chance of learning the baby’s gender. They were so excited.  I was ambivalent, though I didn’t let it show.  I wanted to be excited.  I wanted to be happy.  But the depression was so heavy it hurt.  They started the ultrasound.

“I see two heads!” the technician exclaimed.

What?  That had to be a joke, right?  We’ve just got a “funny” technician, right?  “I don’t joke about things like that,”  she said cheerfully.

Two tears swelled up in my eyes, and I felt God’s presence.  A peace swept over me, and suddenly the heaviness was lifted.  The fear dissipated.  A supernatural calm soothed my soul.  A still small voice whispered within my heart, “Everything’s going to be okay.”

Learning I was having twins explained so much:  the exaggerated pregnancy symptoms, feeling early movement, rapid weight gain, the feeling that something was “off.”  It also made me see clearly:  this was two gifts, two miracles from God, and He chose to give them to me.  And for that, I am eternally grateful.

(written June 17, 2015 –  twins 11 1/2 months)

twins fight asleep

Double Talk Quote: “Do you understand what she said?  Mommy has 2 babies inside of her.” – Me to Mica.  “Yeah, I know.  I couldn’t decide if I wanted a brother or a sister so I prayed for both.”

Bible Verse: Psalm 127:3

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Word that has Lost its meaning:  fear

Relatable Lyrics: “1,000 years” by Christina Perri – http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q9ayN39xmsI “All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow… Every breath, every hour has come to this”

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