Season Of Survival

 

2015-06-20 dirt road ward cemetary

Time after time, I’ve been approached in random places, by fellow moms of twins and given words of encouragement, affirmation, and advice.  The most common information I have received is, “It gets easier after the first two years.”

Over the past year, I have experienced challenges meeting even my basic physical and psychological needs.  Almost anyone who has given birth will admit that, in the beginning, it’s downright hard.  Sleep deprivation, the sound of crying, and keeping up with the demands of a newborn is not easy and can take a toll on any new mother.

Here’s my equation:  Double that (twins) + 7-year-old daughter + marital challenges + financial difficulties + changing environment (baby Asher leaving, 6-year old Hope becoming like a 4th child to me) + Bipolar disorder & anxiety issues = “God I need your help”

For this season in my life, I’ve had to focus on surviving.  So the dishes didn’t get done.  My family ate dinner.  So the living room floor is littered with toys.  My babies played and learned today.  The clean laundry has been sitting in the basket so long, it may never even get put back into the drawers before worn again.  My family has clean clothes to wear.  There are ants in the kitchen (and bedroom, and bathroom).  At least they aren’t fire ants!  So I forgot to renew my license and I paid the cable bill twice last month.  I got where I needed to go, and the cable refund will help a lot towards an extra expense we have this month.  So I have bruises I don’t know where they came from.  That just means I was working so fast that the pain didn’t even bother me.

I recently made a summer “goal schedule.”  It helps me stay on track and try to balance it all.  Sometimes, I feel like there are just too many balls to juggle and I just have to let a few fall.  And that’s okay.  Right now, that’s okay.  Because seasons change.  Spring follows Winter.  One day… one day soon, maybe even today, the ice will start to melt and the sun will shine and I will slowly but surely emerge from this season of surviving to a season of thriving.

(July 1,  2015 –  twins 1 year old)

2015-06-30 earthquakers twins Micaela Grace

Double Talk Quote:  “I was hoping she (the mom of twins) was going to say it gets better after 6 months!” – Amor, the first time someone told him about the two year marker.

Bible Verse: Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.  – 1 Peter 5:6

Word that has Lost its meaning: failure

Relatable Lyrics: Here Comes the Sun by the Beatles www.youtube.com/watch?v=BxzEeKfpyIg&list=PLtW2C_aPoZfSm10ubNP5mVcg2vqfK8n_-&index=3

2015-07-01 goal schedule dry erase

(Dry Erase “Goal Schedule”)

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Comments on: "Season Of Survival" (7)

  1. Ashley Thorsen Varnum said:

    My ten year old is here for the Summer and with a 9 week old now it is chaotic already, but I’m learning as I go. It’s a blessing to have them both under the same roof this Simmer! Every minute with them is a blessing, but sometimes difficult. I also deal with OCD and anxiety issues so that makes it a little more tough, but I know this will make me a better person! Thanks for your raw honesty in your blog entries, they have really inspired me.

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    • Well, thank you for taking the time to read! It’s always an adjustment in the beginning and I’m so glad to hear that you’re in a positive, albeit, challenging place in your life. Congratulations again on your precious new little one!

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  2. Oh my. When i was pregnant with my first child, I was secretly disappointed that she wasn’t twins; being pregnant was miserable for me and I didn’t want to have to do it twice to have two kids. (I wanted two because I was an only child and didn’t like it.) Now, after reading about having twins, I think I’m grateful God only gave me one at a time! Seriously, though, you’re juggling so much. I’ll add two more accomplishments to your list: you wrote a blog post! and took an adorable photo of your four adorable kiddos! 🙂 (And my kids would think it’s great to not have the laundry put away; they just wear things right from the laundry basket!)

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    • Thanks for your kind words. It’s always encouraging to me to get this kind of reply. God knows what He’s doing, even when we don’t and His timing is perfect. He knew His plans for your life and exactly what you could handle and when. He’s done the same for me (although I suspect He has an occasional laugh at my expense)! And that’s fine by me. The Joy of the Lord is my strength.

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  3. It crossed my mind as I read this that to me, you’re already thriving in my opinion although I know it seems like survival and just keeping the wheel turning. My goodness, my friend, imagine what you’ll do when you’re thriving “Supermommyoftwins-style”!

    You already amaze me! Your strength, humor, writing talent, and creativity/originality.
    Sounds like you’ve only just begun! 😉 XOXO

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    • Wow, thank you for the compliments! Most days, I do feel like I’m getting into the thriving part, slowly but surely, but just like when Spring arrives, there are still a few cold days!

      Ha Ha, I love the term you use “Supermommyoftwins-style”! Big Smile & (((hugs))) to you!

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  4. […] misbehaved, or out of hand.  Being a mom is a lot of work. (You’ve read the Mommy Resume!)  As I’ve written before, “here’s my equation:  Double that (2 year old twins) + 8-year-old daughter + marital […]

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