Think: "You think you can, You think you can, You think you can" & one day say: "You thought you could, You said you could, You knew you could" & thus, at least: you thought you did.

Morning Mommy 3

Sleep is the key to my sanity.  If I can regulate sleep, it’s easier to regulate my moods as well.

I have medication that I take at night and I have medication I take in the morning; and never the tween shall meet.  Except they did last night.  Instead of my usual regimen of Ambien, Abilify, and Lamictal, I skipped the first two, opting to take 1/2 of  a Seroquel instead (my doctor is okay with me doing this on occasion).  I had felt a bit of hypomania coming on so I wanted a good night’s rest and Seroquel usually does the trick.  I also knew I didn’t have a busy day coming up so I could rest if it made me a bit drowsy.

But…A cat pressed his way through the door, which was pulled-to but apparently not closed and the hallway light was on.   I woke up in a haze, barely able to see.  The piercing light was coming from the same direction of the clock and I could have sworn that hallway light was the break of dawn.  I could have sworn the time said 6 am, not 2 am.  So I swallowed my pills thinking I’d snooze for a few minutes before I had to wake up Mica to get ready for school.  I was at the apex of a very intricately narrated “movie” dream, when suddenly I was jolted awake.  The meds had kicked in and it was time to get on with the day.

Except…it was 2:30 am.

I’ve been working a lot on immigration case work for my husband lately, so I had plenty to do to occupy my time.  But I worried I’d run out of energy mid-day and be out-of-sorts when the twins (and older girls) needed me the most.  Fortunately, I was able to direct my hypomania into my work during those early morning hours, and even throughout the day, going to the grocery store before anyone in the household was even away, preparing breakfast, cleaning house, and playing hopscotch, painting with the twins and cooking and having a picknick supper outside.  The most trouble I had was lying still when the babes were ready to cuddle.

It’s 8:55pm now.  I’m starting to get tired.  Not sleepy, though.  Just tired.  I’ll take my night meds and rest again and maybe tomorrow will be…just as good.

(written 6/1/2016, Twins 23 months, Mica 8, Hope 7)

Double Talk Quote: “It was a surprise!” – Tia (Hope’s mom) announcing her new pregnancy.  Why am I not surprised?  Congrats to me! (jk – kinda)

Bible Verse: “So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.”  Matthew 6:34

Term that has lost its meaning: creep-o-cat

Relatable Lyrics:   “I Did My Best” by Soul Asylum

“I was waiting for a chain reaction
With a missing link…
…I was tired of being tired
I could not get no rest
So I kept sleepwalking and talking in my sleep
Yes I did my best”


Comments on: "Midnight Medication Mixup" (13)

  1. Jeff Karnes said:

    That sounds like a CAT-TAS-TROPHY! You were up so early you could have written a cat-alogue! Who was the purr-patrator? You got to be kitten me! 😉

    Your awesome! You never cease to amaze me with your energy, and your loving way with your kids! You really are a fantastic mother and you should never doubt yourself! I hope you get some real sleep soon! Love you!!

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    • hahahaha, three, no four Ward/Karnes-hilarious jokes in a row? You got me laughing this morning! I may never know which cat culprit it was. But in all seriousness, thanks for the warm compliments & I love you too! And btw, I did get a wee bit of “catatonic” sleep last night.


    • Grandma said:

      Jeff – sounds like the Ward in you is coming out…. (it is contagious).


  2. I can really relate with this. Having epilepsy sometimes makes me not able to sleep. I would take Seroquel (when I used to take it) and it would really knock me for a loop. I do not see how you are able to do all that you do. I give you a lot of credit. Blessings to you!

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    • Thanks! I feel blessed that the mixup didn’t mess me up, or cause some kind of complication. especially considering the side effects of Seroquel. It does usually “knock me for a loop” too. Praise God I was okay!

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  3. Yikes! I’m glad it worked out okay and that you weren’t dragging by lunch time!

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  4. Very beautiful picture of you!

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  5. Sarah B said:

    It is a very beautiful picture! And it sounds like an amazing, Supermommy day ❤ ..Asher just said: "Everybody praise the Lord!" ^-^ Those are some funny Ward/Karnes comments! 😀
    I love you, Supermommy SuperAunt!

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  6. How weird! I wrote a comment that vanished….thinking of you! Related to this post!!!

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